I find consistent in-consistency...is it true or just Me???

It's not past 2 years and i am already... i mean literally looking back in time as in an hour-glass to a girl who was all studious n all.... books and elocutions and competitions..... for whom being Right was so right.Thats me... I mean.... that was me.... I knew the same people then n whatever new is right now must be additions to my data-base.... so why such a metamorphosis.Can't even say I'am bad right now.... I have succeeded in evading brand-names... it's confusing and disturbing knowing full for sure that what I'am today I won't be say a year from now.So what is that me..... the non-changing format that transcends time.Take even social life.... youth is for sure going cause I'am miracles of all...feeling frightfully responsible.... God save!!!.The same friendly bull-shit sucks right now..... cause I'am not able to make the banter nor do I want to.... and the friends... oh I love them all so much; are aware of differences somehow and are different too.Deal with this.... my boyfriend who's like Everlast steel in my life is now into the desi-husband factor.... I miss the boyfriend-wala feeling..... the charms of forbidden but thoroughly bitten by the social-sanctions bug too.I was a compulsive blogger in my short stint till August n then a period of nothing and here I'am back... it's a little tough when you look back I guess.... cause as much ahead you move you are different.... an evolved entity for better or for worse.Can't help it.... but if it's like I'am trying to find a pattern in the chaos then.... well it's tough n anyways whatever... I'am already looking ahead.